I been spending time with the family more and spending some time with myself. Reflecting on how I came to who I am and where am I going. I noticed that I have two sides of happiness. One side is technologically driven where for me when I'm in my room surrounded by my glimmering lights and hums my electronic devices make. A sanctuary in some sense for me where these devices are with me I use them for the various purposes they are meant for. My computer, television, game consoles, mp3 player, even the various clocks that are around my room.
Now my other side is one where I'm outside in the open and in the free. Some might think that it's all around you when you step outdoors from a house or building but for me its at one place. My grandmother back yard is another haven for me. When I'm out there it's me, my music, and my grandmothers dog. She drops her toy and I throw it and it goes like that for as long as I'm out there. It gives me a feeling where I'm not tied down to the hustle and bustle of everything going on around me and not having to deal with time constraints. The best time is when the sun goes down and the stars shine. They aren't as bright as they were when I was little because of the lights around but you can get a good view better than in the city. I can just stair at them and see the beauty of the night sky.
I look at both these sides of me when I seem to encounter them. Its me learning more about myself as I go along in life.
